Archive for Listopad, 2010

13
Lis

He is just mine

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

He is just mine

It must be so hard?
Find just what will be only mine
Each finds the other and you’re fascinated
How long should I wait?
I’m just for you
But I seem confused

I want to scream “You’re mine
So hold me in your arms”

It must be so hard?
Find just what could be the start
Every obstacle is found and you’re away
How else can I say?
I want to be with you
So what you misunderstood?

I wanna scream “You’re star
Why are you so far”

It must be so hard?
Find just what will be my part
You know what you want and let not stop
How to get your heart?
I’m just for you
Without you sky isn’t blue

I want to scream “You’re my light
When I wander nights”

12
Lis

Walk away

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Walk away

I’m indecisive and I don’t know what to do
Lying or have heard the truth
What is easier
Try it on or lose before
‘Cause everything will be gone
And pain is real

So it’s over before beginning
I will stand here
But don’t tell me “my baby”

You’re undecided and I don’t know what to do
I don’t wanna lie, but can’t tell the truth
I’m so afraid again
Try it on or lose before
Why did fate swore
How does it stand

Now it’s over even sooner
And it’s really painful
Actually, I give you honor

My indecision is gone and I know what I want
Lies and truth are lost
What is the future
Not to try or just hide
All, nothing or fight
Abuse the love too

Beginning of the end
Another lie, that I’m OK
So tell me, “I just walk away”

7
Lis

Endless battle of words

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Endless battle of words

You talk to me about her
Neither you not think that it killing me
Whether you noticed I’m not sure

You talk to me about them
You don’t see how burning in me
The answers are the same

Still I believe that one day you look and see
Who I am and who I could be

I listen what you say
But you cannot see how I suffer
Seeking a way out, not stay

I listen to you talk about them
Neither you not think that it’s torture
I’m becoming a bit insane

Even so I still hope that one day you cross the street
That in your arms my heart stops bleed

You talk to me about this
You don’t see how I’m unhappy
I’m trying to get over it

You talk to me about us
You claim that I am snappy
I just find my way, but I’m out

Nevertheless, i believe that you’re wrong
That I get one, just gotta be strong

7
Lis

Confession

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Confession

I’m confused and I want to disappear from today
Because you’re just a memory, which vanishes in the day
Hidden in the darkest bay
Only stories in my dreams
And life is not what it seems

It would be easier if I did not know you
But have you looked at me, I believe
I’m easily drowned in your blue
My heart bleeds

I’m confused and I want to sleep all today
Because you’re just a memory, which disappears during the day
And you don’t stay
Stories where you love me
But in life it can’t be

Trying to sleep and I want to stay all day
Because you’re a memory, you’re with me, not them
Hidden in the furthest bay
A simple story playing in my dream
And life is not what I seemed

It would be easier if I did not know you
So easy your eyes I believe
But life just is not true
My heart bleeds

It would be easier if you don’t know me
But life in not only decisions that are true
Even one word you can bleed
In my heart you’re like tattoo

6
Lis

Running nowhere

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Running nowhere

I’m running away from hell
Even I cannot spell
And in my head is a bell

I’m running away from disaster
I should have run faster
Excuses I’d just wasted

So stop and look at what you do
I cannot say that I hate you
But kind words are missing too

I’m running from the world
Even memories I cannot record
You’re the best scored

I’m running away from light
And I’m not proud
But I smother your bight

So stop and see what you do
My escape is futile, but can’t be with you
Although your touch is missing me too

I’m running away from nowhere
Nor can’t be so austere
Excuses are somewhere

5
Lis

Looking for ness

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Looking for Ness

You’re looking for happiness
But the sorrow is endless
You look so strong
But inside is something wrong

You stare at a reflection
and see more predilection
Nobody knows about your addiction

It’s 3 am and you’re lost in your world
You see the ness and nothing else
And previous life was so absurd

You’re looking for allness
But imperfection is endless
You look so brave
But inside is something for save

You stare at the shadow
And see just narrow
Nobody knows about your row

It’s 3 am and you’re lost in your world
You see the ness and nothing else
And previous life was so absurd

5
Lis

Destroy

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Destroy

Falling star and I’d make a wish
I know, maybe I’m foolish
So I’m looking for how to say it
Just doubts I should admit

But I’m not ready to lose
And I don’t want to listen your abuse
You see how I’m devastated
You destroy my life in that you’re educated
Just another strife

More and more storm
Stuck on you like a swarm
You give me a diamond ring
What do you think?

Falling star and I’ll not a wish
I know, anyway I was foolish
So I’m looking for how to say it
I’ll not let you cheat

I’m not ready to lose
Still I just listened to your abuse
You saw how I’m devastated
You destroy my life, that you expected
Just wasted drive

Say goodbye, I will not cry
For you or your game
I will not blame
For sorrow or pain
My life I mustn’t hesitate

5
Lis

Pain

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Pain

I feel weak and injured
Pain and hatred pictured
I’m like a flower withered

You betrayed my trust
I stayed out in the dust
Why are you so cussed

All I surrender to you
I’m wondering if you wanted too
What should I do?

You’re my world, my island
It was a wild end
How our lives blend

I feel pain and weakness
Hope is less and less
With you how to have success

You reveal my soul
I have no self under control
I’m like behind closed door

I surrender to you
I want everyone to know the truth
How do I do?

You’re my harbor, my background
You’re all about
My world revolves around

3
Lis

More than friends

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

More than friends

We were little kids and you pulled me by the hand
We were together, but now on the other strand
It was like night with sweet dreams
Fantasy buried by the gleam

We were little kids and even then I knew
But how to cross the threshold, How to get through
One step and we’re closer, but how to proceed?
Before my feelings I wasn’t going to hide in the reeds

Perhaps you’re shy
You’re my prince, but why?
Next to you I want to lie
Never again, we’ll not lie

We’re not little kids, so you finally sit down
Stop dodging, spinning around
The only words I’d like to say
For us choose a common way

We’re not little kids and you still hold my hand
But my signs, you do not understand
I don’t say directly what I feel, but it shows
I tried but I cannot disclose

Perhaps you’re afraid
How to help us, what to say
Can we find our way
My feelings do an air raid

For someone who doesn’t take the first step

2
Lis

Stone wall

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Stone wall

A stone wall between the heart
Each of us is missing a part
Search path and hope, you will discover
The mysterious, mist-shrouded lover

Open your arms, spread your wings
Someone love will bring
The floor is rocking with you
Everyone must pass through

Sometimes we build walls between us
You should just start to trust
Everybody burns, hope blow out
We’re right to doubt

Sometimes it’s easier not to fight
Delude yourself everything is alright
Then you find you’re alone
Around you lies the stones

Open your eyes, spread your wings
Dark nights bells ring
Heartbeat wakes to life
Is it over or rise?

A stone walls between souls
And each of us missing pole
Search the faith and you’ll discover the truth
Words aren’t covered in soot

Sometimes you have to open nearby
You’re still on whom to rely
Spread wings and see the sky
Without the wall open stony heart