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Pulled the trigger

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Pulled the trigger

You promised me a life together
And I wanted believe that’s for ever
But the truth is you played with my heart and thrown me down

I’m laying on the ground hoping, wondering why it’s happening
Again
Cause I gave you all in me
First thought, last air when I need to breathe

It was you who pulled the trigger
It was you who pushed me into the river
It was you who razed the house of cards

You promised me a life together
And it was silly believed that’s forever
Because the truth is it was a easy game, always the same

I’m laying on the ground hoping, wondering why it’s happening
Again
Cause I gave you all in me
First thought, last air when I need to breathe

It was you who pulled the trigger
It was you who pushed me into the river
It was you who razed the house of cards

It was you who thrown me down
It was you who ruined my life
It is me who is dying now

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Říj

In the pouring rain

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

In the pouring rain

I’m standing in the pouring rain
But you don’t know where I am
Only silent words whispers your name

I’m drenched in the pouring rain
And wondering now, who I am
Can hear secret words full of blame

Oh, I know what this mean but I wanna dream my dream
I will scream, scream
You can’t stop me

I’m dancing in the teardrops rain
So, tell me shall we dance
Only silent words whispers my name

I’m hiding in this sudden rain
And you won’t know where I am
Can hear secret words full of blame

Oh, I know what this mean but I wanna dream my dream
I will scream, scream
You can’t stop me

Oh, I know, I really know what this mean but I’ll dream my dream
I will scream, scream, scream
And you can’t stop me

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Říj

Scent of the World Around

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Scent of the World Around

I wanted you to be with me forever
Screaming into the night that you love her
Suddenly night came and I felt like I couldn’t live again
It’s not the same
And I was afraid

But I
Finally feel scent of the world around
I found what I was looking for
Exceed the differences
Throw away my sadness

Life will continue
Begins something new
I should say thank you
For what we had when I loved you

I thought that you mean whole world to me
That without you I will not ever breathe
Suddenly day came and I see I would live again
Will not be the same
But I’m not afraid

And I
Finally feel scent of the world around
I found what I was looking for
I see my open door
Throw away my sorrow

Life is preparing obstacles, we have to learned.  Sometimes it’s difficult to understand why it happened, but maybe later will understand. And I’m glad that I met this guy, because he gave me something what makes me stronger. So I have to say THANK YOU for everything what you did, told, what I thought we had …

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Life for Eternity

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Life for Eternity

You turned my life upside down
I know that I crossed the line
But I have to say life isn’t fair

You promised future with me
And still it sounds so naturally
So why you didn’t stay, only sware

I just wanted you held
When my message was sent
Into eternity
I wanted to feel in safety

I thought I felt your love
I thought we were on the same side
I hoped my life finally is right
Not get down

You saved my days from pain
I know these days won’t be same
But I need to tell I am broken

You held my heart in hands
And still can feel the essense
So why you don’t wanna talk, just across

I just wanted you held
When my message was sent
Into eternity
I wanted to feel in safety

I thought I felt your love
I thought we were on the same side
I hoped my life finally is right
Not get down

These words I wrote because I thought I found someone who really loves me. But probably I was wrong and these times are so difficult for me. He don’t wanna talk with me about everything what happened, what was wrong,… I really love him, and admit I did mistake, but everyone doing mistakes in life …

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Říj

Didn’t saw the light

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Didn’t saw the light

You stole my heart
You crushed me to a little parts
How can I survive

In your eyes I saw every stars
I wanted you beside
I feel nothing inside
Any more I didn’t saw the light

What happened to us
I want back to the stars
You were my own part
Suddenly I stand here fully blind

You stole my heart
You crushed me to a little parts
How can I survive

I wanted live, be alive
Without you beside
I can’t feel this inside
Soul is gone, I’ve been crushed

You were in my mind all the time
Blaming my silly heart
Let you settle inside
Any more I didn’t saw the light

You stole my heart
You crushed me to a little parts
How can I survive

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Remain in my past

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Remain in my past

My head is spinning all over again
Don’t know why I’m not went away
Why I’m still there
You killing me everywhere

I want you to stop
I want you to trust
I want you remain in my past
I want to be alive

My heart is beating inside every cells
Don’t know when this lost a sense
When I start defence
You killing my conscience

I want you to stop
I want you to trust
I want you remain in my past
I want to survive

My brain is blowing up over again
Don’t know where I left a chance
Where I lost essence
You killing my existence

I want you to stop
I want you to trust
I want you remain in my past
I want you
I want you
I want you in my damn life

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Sitting on my bed

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Sitting on my bed

I’m sitting on my bed and tears falling down
The memory burns me and looking for forgiveness
Because I know that I was wrong

In the middle of the night I’m calling
I love you, I don’t wanna lose you
I can’t live without you

I’m sitting on the bed and build walls around
Trying to forget and desire to be more than less
Deserved a new chance to be strong

I’m sitting on my bed and I’m still bound
Words would say more if they’ll find the right address
Even though I was there all along

In the middle of the night I’m crying
I love you, I really need you
I won’t live without you

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Maybe Inside

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Maybe Inside

I’m empty inside
I’m lost in my mind
How to let you know what I feel
That I am real
And won’t waiting anymore

I’m dying inside
Can’t feel my heart
How to tell you that you are
so so far
But I’ll let open my door

And maybe someday I’ll find the way
Maybe exist between these days

I’m lonely inside
Feelings, I will hide
How to let you know what I want
I waited so long
And won’t waiting anymore

I’m lost inside
Like I’m fell apart
How to tell you that I was hide
All the time
But I’ll let open my door

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Justify

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Justify

Even if I want to be strong
Hold your hand and take you home
Justify why I’m leaving, I know it’s wrong
Why not take you home

I gather courage to say goodbye
You’re crying and asking me why
Why I can not stay for a little while
Why leaving you at this time

Hidden secret, or lonely advice
The magic sin without the lies

I beg you on my knees
Forgive me once at least
I have to leave, I have to go
And I know that you know

Even if I wanted to be held
In your warm embrace just melt away
Shining stars shows me the way
And maybe I can start again

Hidden secret, or lonely advice
The magic sin without the lies

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Dark Place

   Posted by: KristianaBrown   in Lonely words

Dark place

Dark place calling to me what can I do?
Exist a place where I have to be?
But you, you’re not here

So I’m calling back my words into the dark
I’m hearing songbirds and shiny sparks at the sky falling down

Dark place calling to me what will I do?
Realized, we couldn’t be
And you, you didn’t know me

Dark place falling into me, So I’m losing you
There’s something what I need
But you, you’re not a real

So I’m calling back my words into the dark
I’m hearing songbirds and shiny sparks at the sky falling down

Dark place following me, and I’m losing clue
I want to find the little safe creek
And you, you’re drowning me

Dark place calling to me, I know hidden truth
The one thing that I need
And you, you’ll bleed

Cause I’m calling back my words into the dark
I’m hearing songbirds and shiny sparks at the sky falling down